Thursday, 27 June 2013

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Wednesday, 26 June 2013

Daily Collection

Monday, 24 June 2013

My Weird Mood

Tuesday, 21 May 2013

Confessions of a teenage girl..

1OO questions ;

O1 - who wαs the lαst person you texted? - johanna, my best friend.

O2 - when is your birthdαy? - october 27th c:

O3 - who do you wαnt to be with right now? - my grandparents.

O4 - whαt sports do you play? - karate, and uhmm thats all.

O5 - who is the first person in your contαcts? - kaila.

O6 - whαt is your fαvorite song αs of the moment? - too many to name! seriously tho!

O7 - if you were strαnded on αn island, who do you wish to be with? - someone c;

O8 - whαt do you feel right now? - slightly pissed off but generally happy.

O9 - whαt chocolαte is your fαvorite? - all chocolate!

1O - how mαny boyfriends / girlfriends did you hαve? - none

11 - why did you creαte α Blogger αccount? - to have a substitute to a diary, because I'm much quicker at writing than typing

12 - who is your fαvorite person here? - used to be my three best friends on here- Caitlin, Janaya and Tyler, but now it's gotta be Bonnee.

13 - where do you wαnt to be right now? - at home.

14 - whαt do you wαnt to be in the future? - A writer. It's my dream.

15 - when wαs the lαst time you cried? - Tbh, I can't remember.

16 - αre you hαppy? - sure thing c:

17 - who do you miss? - Caitlin, Janaya, Tyler, and my dog Nicki.

18 - if you were given α chαnce, would you like to have α different life? - no.

19 - whαt wαs the best thing you were given? - I can't pick.

2O - who wαs the lαst person who cαlled you? - my nan.

21 - whαt is your favorite dish? - don't make me pick. o:

22 - who are your bestfriends? -  jo, laura, vick, kaitlyn.

23 - whαt is your biggets regret? - it's a secret.

25 - who do you spend crαzy moments with? - jo

26 - nαme someone pretty - emma watson

27 - who wαs the lαst person you hugged? - my dad, last night

28 - whαt kind of music do you listen to? all kinds.

29 - αre you over your pαst? - i think so.

3O - who is the lαst person in your contαcts? - Vick

31 - whαt kind of person do you wαnt to dαte? - someone who accepts me for me.

32 - do you hαve troubles sleeping αt night? - yeah, sometimes.

33 - from whom wαs the lαst text messαge you received? - joooo.

34 - whαt do you prefer, jeαns or skirt? - jeans.

35 - how’s your heαrt? - my heart is fine, thank you.

36 - did you ever hαve α girlfriend / boyfriend whose nαme stαrts with α “ J ” ? - no.

37 - do you like someone αs of the moment? - no, not really.

38 - whαt would you wαnt to sαy to your lαtest ex-boyfriend / ex-girlfriend? - I dont have any exs, since i dont have any relationships.

39 - do you hαve αny phobiαs? - no.

4O - did you try to chαnge for α person? - not really. no.

41 - whαt’s the nicest thing hαve you given to someone? - i dont know....

42 - would you go bαck to your previous relαtionship? - like i said before, i cant answer these questions!

43 - αre you in α good or bαd mood? - mostly good.

44 - nαme someone you cαn’t live without. - family.

45 - describe your dreαm dαte. - it doesn't matter as long as we're happy.

46 - describe your dreαm wedding. - marrying the love of my life. that's all that has to be specific.

47 - how mαny roses did you receive lαst Vαlentine’s? - none

48 - hαve you ever been kissed? - no.

49 - how long is your longest relαtionship?- like i said before...

5O - do you regret your pαst? - no, because it helped me learn.

51 - cαn you do something stupid for someone else? - lol yes.

52 - hαve you ever cried over someone? - yes.

53 - do you hαve α grudge αgαinst αnyone? - no.

54 - αre you α crybαby? - no.

55 - do people prαise you for your looks? - lol I can't read minds.

56 - did you fαll for someone you shouldn’t? -

57 - hαve you ever done something bαd but you don’t regret? - yes.

58 - do you like getting hurt? - no one does.

59 - does αnyone hαte you? - I still can't read minds.

6O - did you slαp αnyone whose nαme stαrts with αn “ R ” ? - noo.

61 - whαt hαir color do you prefer? - I dunno.

62 - if you cαn chαnge αnything αbout yourself, whαt is it? - my blemishes. i have juust a few too many for my liking

63 - do you love someone αs of the moment? - of course.

64 - hαve you ever thought of killing yourself?- no, never.

65 - do you hαve issues with somebody in your school? - not really.

66 - cαn you live without internet? - yes, i couuld..

67 - whαt’s the song thαt remind you of your speciαl someone? - uh.. uh.. I know this one.. wait... I got nothing.

68 - αre you good αt holding bαck your teαrs? - sometimes, yes.

7O - hαve you ever experienced being hystericαl? - i dont think so..

71 - αre you α KPOP fαn? -.. not really.

72 - do you study hαrd? - i try.

73 - hαve you ever sαcrificed something important to you for someone you love? - yes.

74 - did you ever hαd α kiss under the moonlight? - no.

75 - hαve you ever ridden α boαt? - yes c:

76 - did you have αn αccident lαst yeαr? - nope.

77 - whαt kind of person αre you? - the kind that breathes.

78 - hαve you ever thought of killing someone? - no.

79 - hαve you ever been jeαlous? - ew, yes.

8O - how cαn you prove your love to someone? - i could sacrifice my own happiness for theirs.

81 - whαt αre you thinking right now? - the answer to this question, and lots of things.

82 - who is the 6th person in your contαcts? - jo.

83 - do you hαve αny memories you wαnt to erαse? - no, i dont regret anything.

84 - hαve you been hurt so bαd thαt you cαn’t find words to explαin how you feel? - no.

85 - did you ever bαdmouth someone? - yeah.

86 - hαve you ever hαd αn αrgument with someone? - not super serious.

87 - do you hαve trust issues? - noo, im reliatively trusting

88 - αre you broken-heαrted? - no.

89 - who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “ love ” ? - my mum.

9O - do you think αll the pαin is worth it? - i dont know!!

91 - do you believe in the phrαse “ If it’s meant to be, it will be ” ? - yes.

92 - who do you wαnt to mαrry? - the love of my life.

93 - do you believe in destiny? - obviously.

94 - hαve you ever thought “ I αlready found my soulmαte ” ? - no.

95 - how do you look right now? - well hmm my hair is out and curly and I'm wearing uniform :P

96 - do you believe thαt first true love never dies? - yes.

97 - hαve you found your true love? - no.

98 - whαt should you be doing right now? - my homework.

99 - nαme one of your ex-boyfriends / ex-girlfriends. - i dont have any!! omfg!!.

1OO - did you ever feel like you’re not good enough? yes

Monday, 6 May 2013


6th May 2013


Mood: {Easily Changeable}


Wishing: It was raining outside so I could go to sleep with rain on my roof

Wearing: An old comfy pair of pyjamas

Hearing: The water pump, situated directly underneath my bedroom, buzzing away since my brother is having a shower. Also the sound of me typing this

Present in this room with me: Rosie, my dog, who has just now......walked out.

Thinking: What’s that noise at the window? –Turns head- oh, it’s just a moth.

Tasting: Strawberry jam. Don’t ask.

Room status: Messy

Mind status: Messy

Homework status: Under control (just)

Now entering: Rosie again. She’s sneaking around like a ninja

Just said: “Rosie, what are you eating?”

Thinking: What on earth could be edible on my bedroom floor?

Realising: It could be anything

Book last read: The Immortal Rules, a totally amazing book which I am currently in love with. I even took it to school today to read during English class #NotObsessed

Movie last seen: To kill a Mockingbird, in English class today

Smelling: Nail polish. did my nails before. All turned out OK, except for the nails done with my left hand

Amount of battery charge left on my laptop: 2hrs and 19min

Last movie seen at a cinema- Iron Man 3, which, FYI was awesome

Last movie seen (apart from in English class): The modern remake of Fright Night, which was really cool

Current TV addiction: I wouldn’t call it an addiction, but I enjoy The Voice

Dreading: Tomorrow, too detailed for me to go into.

Crushing on: Nobody (even if I was, I wouldn’t put his name down on here anyway)

Worrying: Camp on Thursday... its only overnight but we’re camping out in tents. And it’ll be the first camp my year level has had for two years, so it shall be quite interesting. But I’m worrying anyway

Summary of my life: Pfft, I can’t summarise my life into a few sentences! Sheesh! Who do you think you are?

Realising: I’m typing to myself

Realising: I should stop

Current homework: Maths and Creative Time Travel (just a fancy name for history)

Random fact: I need a new pair of aviators

Weather: Dark and very starry and moony

Help!: I hate my history project that I’m stuck with for a term now! Eeek!

Regretting: Working with a partner for it

Thinking: Should I plug my laptop in to charge?

Deciding: Pfft, I’ll do it later


What words spring to mind when I say/type....

Watermelon Tasty

Starbucks Rip off

Johnny Depp Amazing

Instagram Addiction

Gossip magazines Trashy but somehow good (that’s four words stooopid!)


Teenage Boys, summarised in a few dot points

.Idiots (unless I approve of them)

. Rowdy

. Stupid

. One of the many teenage boys in this world will be my future husband. (What a frightening thought)




 Awesomesauce things







Reece Mastin


Old school artists I am now currently into


Bon Jovi

Bruce Springsteen


Def Leppard


The Darkness



Real life friends









Songs I have had on repeat lately (prepare yourself for a long list)

Livin’ on a Prayer- Bon Jovi {in my head right now}

Alive- Empire Of the Sun

Am I ever gonna see your face again- The Angels

Anna Sun- Walk the Moon

Because we can- Bon Jovi

Have a nice day- Bon Jovi

Born in the U.S.A- Bruce Springsteen

Chemical Heart- Grinspoon

Dancing in the Dark- Bruce Springsteen

Eat the rich- Aerosmith

Crazy- Gnarls Barkley

Good Times- INXS

Hung up- Hot Chelle Rae

Is it just me? – The Darkness

It’s Time- Imagine Dragons

Locked out of heaven- Bruno Mars

My songs know what you did in the dark- Fall out Boy

No church in the wild- JAY Z & Kanye West ft. Frank Ocean

Pompeii- Bastille

Pour some sugar on me- Def Leppard

Rag doll- Aerosmith

Stuck in the middle with you- Reservoir Dogs

Thrift Shop- Macklemore + Ryan Lewis

Unskinny Bop- Poison

The view- Olympic Ayres

Where are you going now? – The Lazy Calm

Walking on a Dream- Empire of the Sun

The Game- Pez

Twin Cities- Hungry kids of Hungary

I believe in a thing called love- The Darkness

I’m a dreamer- Diafrix ft 360

Spotlight- Mute Math


This week summarised (from tomorrow onwards)

Tuesday: Loner day

Wednesday: Busy as hell day

Thursday: CAMP! EEK! NO!

Friday: CAMP! EEK! NO!

Saturday: Phew!

Sunday: Goddammit School tomorrow


Decided: Not to think too far ahead anymore

Reason: It gets me worried

Finalising: I need to get to sleep because school is tomorrow and I’m running out of ideas for this post and I’m sure you’re all bored to death by it so I’m going to go now bye~


Yours sincerely,




Wednesday, 24 April 2013

{Anzac Day & Magic}

25th April 2013
ANZAC day public holiday

Well, my day is only half over and already so much has happened. And no, I’m not talking about me actually doing anything like, something....something...productive with my time. –shudders- I can’t stand that thought.
No, I mean so much has happened in other ways. Such as this next example. In the bright, early hours of this morning at approximately 5:00am my ‘delightful’ mother came into my room and woke me up. But it wasn’t until 5:30am until I dragged my slothy self out of bed and got dressed in layer upon layer and in a beanie, big warm coat and scarf. This is quite the task when you’re half asleep. As I walked out into the kitchen complaining of hunger, my parents shoved a few ANZAC biscuits into my grasp and we got in the car as we were going to have to be quick if we wanted to arrive at 6:00am for the ANZAC dawn service.

The car was freezing. Even though I was rugged up I was only just getting warm with the car heater when we arrived at town. As we walked towards the big memorial gates where the service was going to be held, I took a look at the people count. As a usual attender of the dawn service every year, I could safely say that this year’s turnout was much bigger than lasts, which was great to see.

Before I go any further, I better explain to some of you who may be reading who aren’t Australian what ANZAC day is. It’s basically a day where Australians and New Zealanders remember the soldiers of our countries who have served in all wars, although the main focus is on WW1 and the battle at Gallipoli which is said to have been what really brought Australia together as a nation. The ANZACS (Australian + New Zealand Army Corps) are the main focus, although the family and friends of ANZACS also play a part in our hearts. I could go into much greater detail as this is a subject I am very knowledgeable about since I studied a whole class on it last term but I won’t ramble. Back to the dawn service, shall we?

So the service started on 6:00 sharp and it rolled the way most dawn services do. There was the guy who ran most of it, bearing proudly some medals sewn onto his jacket; he was the conductor of it all. There was also a priest who read out some religious notes throughout, and lastly a local man who has very recently served in both Afghanistan and Iran told us of some of his experiences. Although the morning certainly was very frosty, the people of my town stood still for an entire hour, to honour our soldiers of all wars, and to remember them with pride. The Last Pope was played (on record, unfortunately the usual bugle player wasn’t there) but still had a chilling effect. As everyone shuffled forwards to collect a poppy at the end of the service to place at the gates, I took a look around to see if I could spot any familiar faces.

Many faces were those of locals, who I don’t know by name but whose faces are familiar. Among them my mum spotted a friend, I spotted two girls from school and a local teacher among the crowd who had all gotten up at the ripe old time of six o’clock. I felt immense respect not just for our soldiers but also for all these people who had bothered to get up out of bed and celebrate our ANZACS. People short and tall, old and young, had all gathered around our memorial gates for one reason and one reason only: to remember them. With pride, gratitude, and to thank them for the nation Australia is today.

After the service had finished, Dad drove us back home. As we were driving, I looked out the window and up the road a little. Now, something quite unusual happens to me in a minute. So the road to my house is a dirt road right, and there are huge gum trees and stumps all surrounding the sides of the road. I had looked up ahead and I swear I saw figure of an ANZAC from the waist up. The hat, hand paused in salute and everything!! But as we got closer, and I continued to stare out the window in wonder, I looked and saw what I thought to be a digger was simply a tree branch. Now I don’t know if that actually meant anything or if it was just a slip of my mind in early morning, but I wanted to put that down.
 As we got home, we watched some coverage of the services on TV from Gallipoli, France, Melbourne, Brisbane, and Canberra, but very soon we began to grow sleepy.  My parents fell asleep on the couch whilst I crept back to my room and have only woken up about half an hour ago. But let me tell you of the dreams I had.

Usually, my dreams are very odd. In no particular order, here are some of the things from my more significant dreams:
Bushfires, Chihuahuas, family, celebrities, swimming, loosing teeth, kissing (which is odd because I am yet to have my first kiss so I guess my brain just guessed what it’d be like in those particular dreams), bears, a magical pony, gorillas, vampires, my dog Rosie, and a loch ness monster.
And many of them, if I went to a dream reader, would tell me they had no significance at all because they’re all so random. But this certain one I had today, not before the service but after, I have been dwelling on in my mind and I will write down what parts of it I can remember.

I remember sitting on the side of a fountain of what looked like some sort of city square. Anyway, first there was a boy next to me. I have never seen this boy in my (real, awake) life, and I struggle to remember what he looks like now, but I will try. I think he had sandy coloured hair, brown eyes, normal to tan skin, and my god he was sexy. He looked maybe a year or so older than me. But anyway. Prior to this moment in my dream world I must have obviously at least known him before. We must have talked prior in THIS dream but I can’t remember that, all I can remember is him in my arms, his head on my lap, looking deep into my eyes and a single tear slipping down his face. I think he had just been shot (I can’t remember the shooting clear enough to tell you the specifics or even who shot him) but all I remember is him, clutching onto his last moments of life. His hand had oh so very gently rested on my cheek, and his last words were “Please.” He then had softly pushed my head towards his and we kissed until his lips became lifeless and his eyelids slowly fluttered shut and I was holding a lifeless teenage boy in my hands that I had immense love for.

 I remember bawling my eyes out and my god can I just say, this dream seemed so real.
Afterwards, I can’t remember these ones so clearly, but two other people I was with in that dream after McDreamy had died also died somehow. I was gutted, I was like a lifeless person, having random bursts of sobs whenever I remembered any of these three who had passed away. Which is odd now as I type this, because from what I can remember now I don’t know any of these people in my own head, I think they were just figments of my imagination, but pieces of my heart, my soul, my being seemed to be ripped out as each of them died because, oddly enough, I was the only one present when each of them passed.
But soon after the deaths, I was wandering around a town, with my mind repeatedly chanting stuff like ‘what’s the point of life anymore’ because I had loved these people so much. But then I saw a little girl. She was only very small, and she was wearing a dress and had big blue eyes. She was alone, which I should have noticed in the dream but I didn’t. Her blue eyes reminded me of one of the other two who had died and I began to lose it again. Somehow this smart little kid knew I needed somebody and came over to me and took me to a park bench. She sat me down and said “What’s the matter?

I recall telling her of the deaths of these three people I loved, and how I somehow felt the cause of them because I was the only one there with them (dreams are weird things.) And I remember her then telling me this quote, which made me bring tears to my eyes of how simply beautiful it was.  She was like an angel.
The only reason I can quote what she said exactly is because as soon as I woke up, I wrote it down. It was something along the lines of this:
‘When people die, they never really leave us. You just have to keep looking for them. They’re all still around us, in many little ways most people overlook. Keep looking.’
In her words she said that so beautifully it made me believe everything she said. After she said that, I remember he going on to naming the three who had died (whose names I can’t remember now, damn!) and pointing out how they are still around us. There was a storm brewing to the right of us above the buildings, and she told me to watch the lightning. I saw one flash, and it lit up the whole sky. As the rest of the sky was a bright white, there was a dark outline of the boy’s face from the start, the sandy haired cutie, y’know? And I saw his face and it almost felt like he was there with me for that split second, but then the flash ended and he was gone.

She pointed out the other two also but I can’t remember those, because as she was I had begun to slip out of this dream because as I was trying to listen to her, I could hear my mum walking around my house (as in, in real life) so I was on the verge of waking up.
When I did, I felt an odd sense of warmth within me. I’ve been happily floating around today after that dream, still on an odd high of some sort.
So now you understand why I’ve been pondering that dream (and the soldier/stump thing from earlier) all morning so far. Been wondering if it was just a coincidence or if it meant something or whatever. I really don’t know what to think about the whole situation to be honest with you, but I feel better to have written it all down. And for it to be out there, not just sitting in a document on my laptop never to be read again for years.
I’m going to go now, as I feel if I write any more I’m going to begin to ramble.
Until next time,
‘Lest We Forget.’
-       Love EJ x