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Tuesday, 21 May 2013
Confessions of a teenage girl..
1OO questions ;
O1 - who wαs the lαst person you texted? - johanna, my best friend.
O2 - when is your birthdαy? - october 27th c:
O3 - who do you wαnt to be with right now? - my grandparents.
O4 - whαt sports do you play? - karate, and uhmm thats all.
O5 - who is the first person in your contαcts? - kaila.
O6 - whαt is your fαvorite song αs of the moment? - too many to name! seriously tho!
O7 - if you were strαnded on αn island, who do you wish to be with? - someone c;
O8 - whαt do you feel right now? - slightly pissed off but generally happy.
O9 - whαt chocolαte is your fαvorite? - all chocolate!
1O - how mαny boyfriends / girlfriends did you hαve? - none
11 - why did you creαte α Blogger αccount? - to have a substitute to a diary, because I'm much quicker at writing than typing
12 - who is your fαvorite person here? - used to be my three best friends on here- Caitlin, Janaya and Tyler, but now it's gotta be Bonnee.
13 - where do you wαnt to be right now? - at home.
14 - whαt do you wαnt to be in the future? - A writer. It's my dream.
15 - when wαs the lαst time you cried? - Tbh, I can't remember.
16 - αre you hαppy? - sure thing c:
17 - who do you miss? - Caitlin, Janaya, Tyler, and my dog Nicki.
18 - if you were given α chαnce, would you like to have α different life? - no.
19 - whαt wαs the best thing you were given? - I can't pick.
2O - who wαs the lαst person who cαlled you? - my nan.
21 - whαt is your favorite dish? - don't make me pick. o:
22 - who are your bestfriends? - jo, laura, vick, kaitlyn.
23 - whαt is your biggets regret? - it's a secret.
25 - who do you spend crαzy moments with? - jo
26 - nαme someone pretty - emma watson
27 - who wαs the lαst person you hugged? - my dad, last night
28 - whαt kind of music do you listen to? all kinds.
29 - αre you over your pαst? - i think so.
3O - who is the lαst person in your contαcts? - Vick
31 - whαt kind of person do you wαnt to dαte? - someone who accepts me for me.
32 - do you hαve troubles sleeping αt night? - yeah, sometimes.
33 - from whom wαs the lαst text messαge you received? - joooo.
34 - whαt do you prefer, jeαns or skirt? - jeans.
35 - how’s your heαrt? - my heart is fine, thank you.
36 - did you ever hαve α girlfriend / boyfriend whose nαme stαrts with α “ J ” ? - no.
37 - do you like someone αs of the moment? - no, not really.
38 - whαt would you wαnt to sαy to your lαtest ex-boyfriend / ex-girlfriend? - I dont have any exs, since i dont have any relationships.
39 - do you hαve αny phobiαs? - no.
4O - did you try to chαnge for α person? - not really. no.
41 - whαt’s the nicest thing hαve you given to someone? - i dont know....
42 - would you go bαck to your previous relαtionship? - like i said before, i cant answer these questions!
43 - αre you in α good or bαd mood? - mostly good.
44 - nαme someone you cαn’t live without. - family.
45 - describe your dreαm dαte. - it doesn't matter as long as we're happy.
46 - describe your dreαm wedding. - marrying the love of my life. that's all that has to be specific.
47 - how mαny roses did you receive lαst Vαlentine’s? - none
48 - hαve you ever been kissed? - no.
49 - how long is your longest relαtionship?- like i said before...
5O - do you regret your pαst? - no, because it helped me learn.
51 - cαn you do something stupid for someone else? - lol yes.
52 - hαve you ever cried over someone? - yes.
53 - do you hαve α grudge αgαinst αnyone? - no.
54 - αre you α crybαby? - no.
55 - do people prαise you for your looks? - lol I can't read minds.
56 - did you fαll for someone you shouldn’t? - uhmm..no.
57 - hαve you ever done something bαd but you don’t regret? - yes.
58 - do you like getting hurt? - no one does.
59 - does αnyone hαte you? - I still can't read minds.
6O - did you slαp αnyone whose nαme stαrts with αn “ R ” ? - noo.
61 - whαt hαir color do you prefer? - I dunno.
62 - if you cαn chαnge αnything αbout yourself, whαt is it? - my blemishes. i have juust a few too many for my liking
63 - do you love someone αs of the moment? - of course.
64 - hαve you ever thought of killing yourself?- no, never.
65 - do you hαve issues with somebody in your school? - not really.
66 - cαn you live without internet? - yes, i couuld..
67 - whαt’s the song thαt remind you of your speciαl someone? - uh.. uh.. I know this one.. wait... I got nothing.
68 - αre you good αt holding bαck your teαrs? - sometimes, yes.
7O - hαve you ever experienced being hystericαl? - i dont think so..
71 - αre you α KPOP fαn? -.. not really.
72 - do you study hαrd? - i try.
73 - hαve you ever sαcrificed something important to you for someone you love? - yes.
74 - did you ever hαd α kiss under the moonlight? - no.
75 - hαve you ever ridden α boαt? - yes c:
76 - did you have αn αccident lαst yeαr? - nope.
77 - whαt kind of person αre you? - the kind that breathes.
78 - hαve you ever thought of killing someone? - no.
79 - hαve you ever been jeαlous? - ew, yes.
8O - how cαn you prove your love to someone? - i could sacrifice my own happiness for theirs.
81 - whαt αre you thinking right now? - the answer to this question, and lots of things.
82 - who is the 6th person in your contαcts? - jo.
83 - do you hαve αny memories you wαnt to erαse? - no, i dont regret anything.
84 - hαve you been hurt so bαd thαt you cαn’t find words to explαin how you feel? - no.
85 - did you ever bαdmouth someone? - yeah.
86 - hαve you ever hαd αn αrgument with someone? - not super serious.
87 - do you hαve trust issues? - noo, im reliatively trusting
88 - αre you broken-heαrted? - no.
89 - who’s the person who first comes to your mind when someone mentions “ love ” ? - my mum.
9O - do you think αll the pαin is worth it? - i dont know!!
91 - do you believe in the phrαse “ If it’s meant to be, it will be ” ? - yes.
92 - who do you wαnt to mαrry? - the love of my life.
93 - do you believe in destiny? - obviously.
94 - hαve you ever thought “ I αlready found my soulmαte ” ? - no.
95 - how do you look right now? - well hmm my hair is out and curly and I'm wearing uniform :P
96 - do you believe thαt first true love never dies? - yes.
97 - hαve you found your true love? - no.
98 - whαt should you be doing right now? - my homework.
99 - nαme one of your ex-boyfriends / ex-girlfriends. - i dont have any!! omfg!!.
1OO - did you ever feel like you’re not good enough? yes
Sunday, 12 May 2013
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Monday, 6 May 2013
{Update}
6th
May 2013
9:22pm
Mood: {Easily
Changeable}
Wishing: It
was raining outside so I could go to sleep with rain on my roof
Wearing: An
old comfy pair of pyjamas
Hearing: The
water pump, situated directly underneath my bedroom, buzzing away since my brother
is having a shower. Also the sound of me typing this
Present in
this room with me: Rosie, my dog, who has just now......walked out.
Thinking:
What’s that noise at the window? –Turns head- oh, it’s just a moth.
Tasting:
Strawberry jam. Don’t ask.
Room status:
Messy
Mind status:
Messy
Homework
status: Under control (just)
Now entering:
Rosie again. She’s sneaking around like a ninja
Just said:
“Rosie, what are you eating?”
Thinking: What on earth could be edible on my bedroom
floor?
Realising: It
could be anything
Book last
read: The Immortal Rules, a totally
amazing book which I am currently in love with. I even took it to school today
to read during English class #NotObsessed
Movie last
seen: To kill a Mockingbird, in
English class today
Smelling: Nail
polish. did my nails before. All turned out OK, except for the nails done with
my left hand
Amount of
battery charge left on my laptop: 2hrs and 19min
Last movie
seen at a cinema- Iron Man 3, which,
FYI was awesome
Last movie
seen (apart from in English class): The modern remake of Fright Night, which was really cool
Current TV
addiction: I wouldn’t call it an addiction, but I enjoy The Voice
Dreading:
Tomorrow, too detailed for me to go into.
Crushing on:
Nobody (even if I was, I wouldn’t put his name down on here anyway)
Worrying:
Camp on Thursday... its only overnight but we’re camping out in tents. And
it’ll be the first camp my year level has had for two years, so it shall be
quite interesting. But I’m worrying anyway
Summary of my
life: Pfft, I can’t summarise my life into a few sentences! Sheesh! Who do you
think you are?
Realising:
I’m typing to myself
Realising: I
should stop
Current
homework: Maths and Creative Time Travel (just a fancy name for history)
Random fact:
I need a new pair of aviators
Weather: Dark
and very starry and moony
Help!: I hate
my history project that I’m stuck with for a term now! Eeek!
Regretting:
Working with a partner for it
Thinking:
Should I plug my laptop in to charge?
Deciding:
Pfft, I’ll do it later
What words spring to mind when I
say/type....
Watermelon Tasty
Starbucks Rip off
Johnny Depp Amazing
Instagram Addiction
Gossip magazines Trashy but somehow good (that’s four
words stooopid!)
Teenage Boys, summarised in a few dot
points
.Idiots
(unless I approve of them)
. Rowdy
. Stupid
. One of the
many teenage boys in this world will be my future husband. (What a frightening
thought)
Awesomesauce
things
Chocolate
Internet
Love
Holidays
Jewellery
Music
Reece Mastin
Old school artists I am now currently
into
Aerosmith
Bon Jovi
Bruce
Springsteen
INXS
Def Leppard
Poison
The Darkness
AC/DC
Real life friends
Jo
Laura
Kaitlyn
Vick
Ava
Lucy
Songs I have had on repeat lately
(prepare yourself for a long list)
Livin’ on a
Prayer- Bon Jovi {in my head right now}
Alive- Empire
Of the Sun
Am I ever
gonna see your face again- The Angels
Anna Sun-
Walk the Moon
Because we
can- Bon Jovi
Have a nice
day- Bon Jovi
Born in the
U.S.A- Bruce Springsteen
Chemical
Heart- Grinspoon
Dancing in
the Dark- Bruce Springsteen
Eat the rich-
Aerosmith
Crazy- Gnarls
Barkley
Good Times-
INXS
Hung up- Hot
Chelle Rae
Is it just
me? – The Darkness
It’s Time-
Imagine Dragons
Locked out of
heaven- Bruno Mars
My songs know
what you did in the dark- Fall out Boy
No church in
the wild- JAY Z & Kanye West ft. Frank Ocean
Pompeii-
Bastille
Pour some
sugar on me- Def Leppard
Rag doll-
Aerosmith
Stuck in the
middle with you- Reservoir Dogs
Thrift Shop-
Macklemore + Ryan Lewis
Unskinny Bop-
Poison
The view-
Olympic Ayres
Where are you
going now? – The Lazy Calm
Walking on a
Dream- Empire of the Sun
The Game- Pez
Twin Cities-
Hungry kids of Hungary
I believe in
a thing called love- The Darkness
I’m a
dreamer- Diafrix ft 360
Spotlight-
Mute Math
This week summarised (from tomorrow
onwards)
Tuesday:
Loner day
Wednesday:
Busy as hell day
Thursday:
CAMP! EEK! NO!
Friday: CAMP!
EEK! NO!
Saturday:
Phew!
Sunday:
Goddammit School tomorrow
Decided: Not
to think too far ahead anymore
Reason: It
gets me worried
Finalising: I
need to get to sleep because school is tomorrow and I’m running out of ideas
for this post and I’m sure you’re all bored to death by it so I’m going to go
now bye~
Yours
sincerely,
EJ
Wednesday, 24 April 2013
{Anzac Day & Magic}
25th April 2013
ANZAC day public holiday
12:20pm
Well, my day is only half
over and already so much has happened. And no, I’m not talking about me
actually doing anything like,
something....something...productive with my time. –shudders-
I can’t stand that thought.
No, I mean so much has
happened in other ways. Such as this next example. In the bright, early hours
of this morning at approximately 5:00am my ‘delightful’ mother came into my
room and woke me up. But it wasn’t until 5:30am until I dragged my slothy self
out of bed and got dressed in layer upon layer and in a beanie, big warm coat
and scarf. This is quite the task when you’re half asleep. As I walked out into
the kitchen complaining of hunger, my parents shoved a few ANZAC biscuits into
my grasp and we got in the car as we were going to have to be quick if we
wanted to arrive at 6:00am for the ANZAC dawn service.
The car was freezing. Even
though I was rugged up I was only just getting warm with the car heater when we
arrived at town. As we walked towards the big memorial gates where the service
was going to be held, I took a look at the people count. As a usual attender of
the dawn service every year, I could safely say that this year’s turnout was
much bigger than lasts, which was great to see.
Before I go any further, I
better explain to some of you who may be reading who aren’t Australian what
ANZAC day is. It’s basically a day where Australians and New Zealanders
remember the soldiers of our countries who have served in all wars, although the
main focus is on WW1 and the battle at Gallipoli which is said to have been
what really brought Australia together as a nation. The ANZACS (Australian +
New Zealand Army Corps) are the main focus, although the family and friends of
ANZACS also play a part in our hearts. I could go into much greater detail as
this is a subject I am very knowledgeable about since I studied a whole class
on it last term but I won’t ramble. Back to the dawn service, shall we?
So the service started on
6:00 sharp and it rolled the way most dawn services do. There was the guy who
ran most of it, bearing proudly some medals sewn onto his jacket; he was the
conductor of it all. There was also a priest who read out some religious notes
throughout, and lastly a local man who has very recently served in both
Afghanistan and Iran told us of some of his experiences. Although the morning
certainly was very frosty, the people of my town stood still for an entire
hour, to honour our soldiers of all wars, and to remember them with pride. The
Last Pope was played (on record, unfortunately the usual bugle player wasn’t
there) but still had a chilling effect. As everyone shuffled forwards to
collect a poppy at the end of the service to place at the gates, I took a look
around to see if I could spot any familiar faces.
Many faces were those of
locals, who I don’t know by name but whose faces are familiar. Among them my
mum spotted a friend, I spotted two girls from school and a local teacher among
the crowd who had all gotten up at the ripe old time of six o’clock. I felt
immense respect not just for our soldiers but also for all these people who had
bothered to get up out of bed and celebrate our ANZACS. People short and tall,
old and young, had all gathered around our memorial gates for one reason and
one reason only: to remember them. With pride, gratitude, and to thank them for
the nation Australia is today.
After the service had
finished, Dad drove us back home. As we were driving, I looked out the window
and up the road a little. Now, something quite unusual happens to me in a
minute. So the road to my house is a dirt road right, and there are huge gum
trees and stumps all surrounding the sides of the road. I had looked up ahead
and I swear I saw figure of an ANZAC from the waist up. The hat, hand paused in
salute and everything!! But as we got closer, and I continued to stare out the
window in wonder, I looked and saw what I thought to be a digger was simply a
tree branch. Now I don’t know if that actually meant anything or if it was just
a slip of my mind in early morning, but I wanted to put that down.
As we got home, we watched some coverage of
the services on TV from Gallipoli, France, Melbourne, Brisbane, and Canberra,
but very soon we began to grow sleepy.
My parents fell asleep on the couch whilst I crept back to my room and
have only woken up about half an hour ago. But let me tell you of the dreams I
had.
Usually, my dreams are very
odd. In no particular order, here are some of the things from my more
significant dreams:
Bushfires, Chihuahuas,
family, celebrities, swimming, loosing teeth, kissing (which is odd because I
am yet to have my first kiss so I guess my brain just guessed what it’d be like
in those particular dreams), bears, a magical pony, gorillas, vampires, my dog
Rosie, and a loch ness monster.
And many of them, if I went
to a dream reader, would tell me they had no significance at all because
they’re all so random. But this certain one I had today, not before the service
but after, I have been dwelling on in my mind and I will write down what parts
of it I can remember.
I remember sitting on the
side of a fountain of what looked like some sort of city square. Anyway, first
there was a boy next to me. I have never seen this boy in my (real, awake)
life, and I struggle to remember what he looks like now, but I will try. I
think he had sandy coloured hair, brown eyes, normal to tan skin, and my god he
was sexy. He looked maybe a year or so older than me. But anyway. Prior to this
moment in my dream world I must have obviously at least known him before. We must have talked prior in THIS dream but I
can’t remember that, all I can remember is him in my arms, his head on my lap,
looking deep into my eyes and a single tear slipping down his face. I think he had just been shot (I can’t
remember the shooting clear enough to tell you the specifics or even who shot
him) but all I remember is him, clutching onto his last moments of life. His
hand had oh so very gently rested on my cheek, and his last words were
“Please.” He then had softly pushed my head towards his and we kissed until his
lips became lifeless and his eyelids slowly fluttered shut and I was holding a
lifeless teenage boy in my hands that I had immense love for.
I remember
bawling my eyes out and my god can I just say, this dream seemed so real.
Afterwards, I can’t remember
these ones so clearly, but two other people I was with in that dream after
McDreamy had died also died somehow. I was gutted, I was like a lifeless
person, having random bursts of sobs whenever I remembered any of these three
who had passed away. Which is odd now as I type this, because from what I can
remember now I don’t know any of these people in my own head, I think they were
just figments of my imagination, but pieces of my heart, my soul, my being seemed
to be ripped out as each of them died because, oddly enough, I was the only one
present when each of them passed.
But soon after the deaths, I
was wandering around a town, with my mind repeatedly chanting stuff like
‘what’s the point of life anymore’ because I had loved these people so much.
But then I saw a little girl. She was only very small, and she was wearing a
dress and had big blue eyes. She was alone, which I should have noticed in the
dream but I didn’t. Her blue eyes reminded me of one of the other two who had
died and I began to lose it again. Somehow this smart little kid knew I needed
somebody and came over to me and took me to a park bench. She sat me down and
said “What’s the matter?
I recall telling her of the
deaths of these three people I loved, and how I somehow felt the cause of them
because I was the only one there with them (dreams are weird things.) And I
remember her then telling me this quote, which made me bring tears to my eyes
of how simply beautiful it was. She was
like an angel.
The only reason I can quote
what she said exactly is because as soon as I woke up, I wrote it down. It was
something along the lines of this:
‘When people die, they never
really leave us. You just have to keep looking for them. They’re all still around
us, in many little ways most people overlook. Keep looking.’
In her words she said that
so beautifully it made me believe everything she said. After she said that, I
remember he going on to naming the three who had died (whose names I can’t
remember now, damn!) and pointing out how they are still around us. There was a
storm brewing to the right of us above the buildings, and she told me to watch
the lightning. I saw one flash, and it lit up the whole sky. As the rest of the
sky was a bright white, there was a dark outline of the boy’s face from the
start, the sandy haired cutie, y’know? And I saw his face and it almost felt
like he was there with me for that split second, but then the flash ended and
he was gone.
She pointed out the other
two also but I can’t remember those, because as she was I had begun to slip out
of this dream because as I was trying to listen to her, I could hear my mum
walking around my house (as in, in real life) so I was on the verge of waking
up.
When I did, I felt an odd sense
of warmth within me. I’ve been happily floating around today after that dream,
still on an odd high of some sort.
So now you understand why
I’ve been pondering that dream (and the soldier/stump thing from earlier) all
morning so far. Been wondering if it was just a coincidence or if it meant
something or whatever. I really don’t know what to think about the whole
situation to be honest with you, but I feel better to have written it all down.
And for it to be out there, not just sitting in a document on my laptop never
to be read again for years.
I’m going to go now, as I
feel if I write any more I’m going to begin to ramble.
Until next time,
‘Lest We Forget.’
- Love EJ x
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